"You have to have a darkness... for the dawn to come" - Unknown.

I'm pretty sad today. It isn't because I've lost something and it isn't because I've found something. It isn't because I've been listening to sad songs or revising sad literature.
If I'm honest I don't know why I'm sad...
Well I know why, but I can't express why, because I am not clear, myself on what that 'why' involves.
Does that make sense?

In simple terms; I am sad because I am blind to actions which others have seen.
I wish to be like the others. I wish to have eyes that do not require a limit - or a recharge.
But on the other hand I feel that it is better for me to be blind, rather than see what action I long to see. Surely if this is the wish of the divine - then it must be for the best.
This post is very confusing. I understand. In ways I do not want you to understand it. In other ways; I do.
I am scared of what was. What might be. And what could be.
I know briefly - what was. I hope that it is not what it might be. And I know what I wish it could be.
If I plague my mind on some of these factors, I know full well that my mind will rot and decay. So why do I put my opinions down when I know that it is bad for my well-being?
Feelings cause so much hurt, yet they can also cause so much joy.

Love.

Curse love.
Love causes more hurt than joy. It bubbles deep down within the very depths of our being, and even when we let it burst abruptly from our entity - it recoils - always - with such force it knocks us aback. What do we mean by love? It is certainly not trust. I do not trust my cat to return when night falls, but I say that I 'love' it. Mhmm maybe the same principle can be applied to human nature...