Life is like an onion - [24|04|2009]

"Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep."
Carl Sandburg

Despite being completely addicted to Pepsi Cola, I've had quite an interesting day. I can't say it's been a "happy" day. I've learnt things that have made me sad, but to contrast I've learnt things that have made me happy.
So, overall I guess the day has been neutral in some respects. I will say however, it has been a hard day.
I've not been out much, and even a spot of retail therapy didn't perk up my spirits [and for those you may not know me - that is a strange occurrence].

I'm sure you will agree when I say how everything starts off so perfect, and then as time takes hold, these things seem to break down and they aren't as perfect as they once were?
Time is the deadliest, yet liveliest thing that shares my existence. Yet, if it did not exist then neither would I. Strange isn't it?
Without time, we would not see things as they were, instead they would be as we wanted them to appear. And as our morals tell us... whatever the consequence... and however much it hurts... truth should always be the main priority.
If we look deeper into this situation, and focus on what we truly want and we stop fighting the inevitable; time will stop fighting us.

I would recommend that everyone would learn this simple fact the hard way, as then we do not overlook the importance of it. And surely... it is positive that we can take something that is negative and alter it's meaning to benefit us.

As for my day... well that better after a lengthily chat with Dommy. I feel better now, despite the realization and the heartache. It is only today I learnt the above on reflection.
Thanks to those who cared; Leona :D and Rob :D I do appreciate your concern. I am content now. It was inevitable, like time, and it's days like this which strengthen you and your relationship. These are the days which make you want to stand on the highest point and shout, and similarly many philosophers would say that these are the days that smack you round the fucking face and shout "Fanny", but they say it with longer words and in a complicated and sophisicated manner.
I learnt things I didn't want to learn. Things that I could have happily existed without knowing, but in a sort of inherent contradiction I would have been unhappy if I my ears were blind. Now I know I can move forward and try to use misfortunes to benefit.

If I learnt one thing from today, I'd say that flowers can still grow in dark places.
Ruth .x.